YOUR SUICIDE DIDN’T KILL ME
by Cathie Godfrey
A message from cATHIE
My husband of 15 years died by suicide on December 22, 2000. Initially, I thought I would never experience joy and happiness again. I was wrong. After giving myself time to grieve, I made a conscious choice to live again. I chose not to be defined by his death.
I decided I deserved to have a life worth living.
If you have lost a loved one to suicide,
you may feel like your life is over.
You may want to crawl into a hole.
You may be going through life as if you have died too.
I am here to say there is hope, there is another way.
Death can be a catalyst for change.
And guess what? You get to decide what that change looks like.
You have the power to choose:
Newly, every day
There is hope
In my darkest hours, I cannot see hope
I think it hides from me
Elusive, shielding itself
Or gone forever
And ever so softly, I hear its’ voice
“I am still here”
“I have been here all along”
I realize I am at choice
It is up to me to open my eyes, my heart
And acknowledge its’ presence
In choosing to acknowledge hope
I see possibility
And I feel comforted
I am grateful for hope’s patience
Waiting for me
To take its’ hand once again
– Cathie Godfrey
If you are experiencing mental health–related distress
or are worried about a loved one who may need crisis support
in Canada or the United States:
In either country, if this is an emergency, dial 911